Well,
I started a new hobby. Its technically an old hobby but I have taken a 15 year break from it so it might as well be new. It's horse riding, with a view to learning Dressage.
This morning, after my first proper lesson last night, I feel like my legs are going to fall off. I had forgotten how much this lark HURTS!!!! The good news though is that my mind is currently not on the lack of communication from hubby. There have been a few scattered emails, but no phone calls. Luckily I had some warning of this possibility so the worries have not come as fast and frequent as they sometimes might. But the horse riding and subsequent pain have certainly given me something else to think about in the mean time.
I need painkillers . . . NoW!!!
Tuesday, July 31, 2007
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
Today I posted Harry Potter to hubby! He's as big of a nerd as I am. I also sent his favourite toothpaste because apparently it isn't available in his corner of Iraq. I am constantly amazed by what silly things he is fussy about.
Work is driving me nuts. I am so bored. Of course, part of that is probably due to the fact I am a little bit bored at home. I see friends and family, but its just not the same as having him home. A bit part of it though, is the work. I have to ask myself whether I am willing to settle for a boring but stable job, or go out and seek something more exciting but less secure. Its hard. This is my first ever real job. I know I'm probably suffering from the "grass is always greener" syndrome. But . . . it couldn't be much worse. The only thing keeping me there is the people with whom I work, and the hours I work. I know, I know, suck it up and shut up.
Anyway, the fact is we need the money and so I can't go anywhere for now. The Army does not pay E5s very well. So. With that in mind, its time to go to bed and get ready for another not so exciting day at work!
PS
Marathon training is going well!! Knees seem to have recovered.
Work is driving me nuts. I am so bored. Of course, part of that is probably due to the fact I am a little bit bored at home. I see friends and family, but its just not the same as having him home. A bit part of it though, is the work. I have to ask myself whether I am willing to settle for a boring but stable job, or go out and seek something more exciting but less secure. Its hard. This is my first ever real job. I know I'm probably suffering from the "grass is always greener" syndrome. But . . . it couldn't be much worse. The only thing keeping me there is the people with whom I work, and the hours I work. I know, I know, suck it up and shut up.
Anyway, the fact is we need the money and so I can't go anywhere for now. The Army does not pay E5s very well. So. With that in mind, its time to go to bed and get ready for another not so exciting day at work!
PS
Marathon training is going well!! Knees seem to have recovered.
Monday, July 23, 2007
Ahh - back after a brief hiatus to read the final Harry Potter book. It was good - a little predictable - but good.
Today has been harder than recent days. Hubby had said he would call and then didn't - so I was in a worrisome mood for most of last night. Then I got an email saying he would call today, and he didn't. So I worry again. I know, of course, that he can't promise anything and the phones are dodgy and all that - but I just can't help it. And then just to top it all off, I couldn't get the top of the bloody branston pickle. Needing a man at that particular moment made me realise just how much I miss him.
I never got any branston pickle either. Its still sitting there, taunting me with its spicy goodness.
Still, trying to remain happy and positive since I know its only a temporary blip.
Today has been harder than recent days. Hubby had said he would call and then didn't - so I was in a worrisome mood for most of last night. Then I got an email saying he would call today, and he didn't. So I worry again. I know, of course, that he can't promise anything and the phones are dodgy and all that - but I just can't help it. And then just to top it all off, I couldn't get the top of the bloody branston pickle. Needing a man at that particular moment made me realise just how much I miss him.
I never got any branston pickle either. Its still sitting there, taunting me with its spicy goodness.
Still, trying to remain happy and positive since I know its only a temporary blip.
Saturday, July 21, 2007
Friday, July 20, 2007
What? That's not the road?
Silly Silly. Today I had to go downtown for a meeting. This doesn't sound like much of an adventure except that as usual, it was pissing down. So, off I went. All was going well, tootling along and looking for a parking space. I spy a car park on the left side of the one way street, scoot across the lanes and turn in. Why is this interesting. HA - well, it turns out it was not an entrance to the car park at all and I actually drove over the footpath and up over a large curb !! nice. In my defense, it was really rainy and there was a lot of water on the path. I was so ashamed!
Hubby has started the job hunt for when he gets back because it is going to take a while. Since the lovely army deployed him right after the bar exam, he didn't ever get a chance to get in the job market. So we have been working on his resume. Hopefully some employers will appreciate that war zone experience counts for something!!! We'll see.
Hubby has started the job hunt for when he gets back because it is going to take a while. Since the lovely army deployed him right after the bar exam, he didn't ever get a chance to get in the job market. So we have been working on his resume. Hopefully some employers will appreciate that war zone experience counts for something!!! We'll see.
Thursday, July 19, 2007
Well, my magical hairdresser has managed to make me look presentable for at least 24 hours. I chickened out and only cut off 4 inches. but at least it looks tidy. I hardly recognise myself.
I decided to clean the fish tanks this evening. The whole process reminded me why I need a man back in the house. The tank is heavy, right, so, I thought I should empty it first. Then, I thought, bugger this and decided just to lift it over to the sink. BIG MISTAKE. I now have mucky fishy water all over the kitchen. Most of it is cleared up but the rug will need a good going over. And what would have prevented all this? Having someone with some upper body strength. I am all about equality and all but honestly, I'm just too weedy to do some things!
I decided to clean the fish tanks this evening. The whole process reminded me why I need a man back in the house. The tank is heavy, right, so, I thought I should empty it first. Then, I thought, bugger this and decided just to lift it over to the sink. BIG MISTAKE. I now have mucky fishy water all over the kitchen. Most of it is cleared up but the rug will need a good going over. And what would have prevented all this? Having someone with some upper body strength. I am all about equality and all but honestly, I'm just too weedy to do some things!
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
Isn't it so lovely to have a relaxing evening? Tonight was the first I have had in a little while. Hubby has sounded (!) safer recently, so I don't have to worry about him quite so much. I finished everything I planned for the day at work, and I didn't get stuck in a rain storm on the way home.
So, it has been a lovely evening. I plonked myself on the sofa and watched a favourite film and then had a glass of wine with dinner. I even took a nice little nap. Fabulous. I also watched my current favourite on the telly - "so you think you can dance." I love it. I makes me dream that maybe if had even an ounce of grace or had only the one left foot, I could be a dancer too. Thankfully when this show is over, my other fave, "dancing with the stars" will be back.
I've also been playing online trying to find a new hair do. I have wild hair that takes huge amounts of effort to tame every morning. It has that charming super-frizz characteristic that means "big" is never an issue, and, there is tons of it. Every hairdresser I have ever been to has said something along the lines of "blimey, that's a lot of hair for one person." Add that to the SE Texas humidity and you have recipe for disaster and a big grin on the face of the flat iron people. Anyway. . . I spent two hours online only to come to the conclusion that long, red and frizzy is probably how it will remain. I'll tell my hair that it's the thought that counts.
Oh, I hope this good mood continues. Its not that I ever stop worrying about him, but it is so nice to get a bit of relief from the nervous feeling I have most of the time. IT has also been super that we have been able to talk about non-war related items recently. One that has brought us most joy is planning our wedding reception. We had one of those planned in 24 hours weddings that a lot of military couples have when they find out about deployment. It was wonderful, but we didn't get to celebrate with many friends. In fact, most people missed it. So, when he gets back, we are having a large reception and will finally get to dance our "first dance." I think we have decided on a song, but I have dreamed about this moment for a long time so it has to be perfect. Discussing it has made for some brilliant phone chats recently.
This post is too long . . .
So, it has been a lovely evening. I plonked myself on the sofa and watched a favourite film and then had a glass of wine with dinner. I even took a nice little nap. Fabulous. I also watched my current favourite on the telly - "so you think you can dance." I love it. I makes me dream that maybe if had even an ounce of grace or had only the one left foot, I could be a dancer too. Thankfully when this show is over, my other fave, "dancing with the stars" will be back.
I've also been playing online trying to find a new hair do. I have wild hair that takes huge amounts of effort to tame every morning. It has that charming super-frizz characteristic that means "big" is never an issue, and, there is tons of it. Every hairdresser I have ever been to has said something along the lines of "blimey, that's a lot of hair for one person." Add that to the SE Texas humidity and you have recipe for disaster and a big grin on the face of the flat iron people. Anyway. . . I spent two hours online only to come to the conclusion that long, red and frizzy is probably how it will remain. I'll tell my hair that it's the thought that counts.
Oh, I hope this good mood continues. Its not that I ever stop worrying about him, but it is so nice to get a bit of relief from the nervous feeling I have most of the time. IT has also been super that we have been able to talk about non-war related items recently. One that has brought us most joy is planning our wedding reception. We had one of those planned in 24 hours weddings that a lot of military couples have when they find out about deployment. It was wonderful, but we didn't get to celebrate with many friends. In fact, most people missed it. So, when he gets back, we are having a large reception and will finally get to dance our "first dance." I think we have decided on a song, but I have dreamed about this moment for a long time so it has to be perfect. Discussing it has made for some brilliant phone chats recently.
This post is too long . . .
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
Today's stress?? The traffic. If anyone can tell me why drivers feel the need to slow down to look at accidents? Answers on a postcard please!
Oh, and of course - it rained!!! What a bloody shocker. And, lucky us, we are getting more rain tomorrow. :-)
Nothing even remotely amusing happened today. I'm a little disappointed, I have to admit. I got to work at crazy am (6:20) so that I could leave early and go to a house closing. I mainly wanted to go because there was champagne and strawberries - and very nice they were too! I felt a little naughty drinking at 4pm on a Tuesday! The pleasure was entirely ruined by the silly traffic coming home though - an hour to go 6 miles!!!!! ick. Oh I know, all I ever do is complain - but really!! And, it isn't helped by the fact that drivers here like to look at the green light for a good 10 seconds before they go, presumably just to check that the light is in fact, green, and not just a green shade of red.
Oh the happy front, I spoke to hubby again today! He is so busy that he hasn't had time to check for the package I sent. I think he is out of peach iced tea (his absolute favourite) and I had send a load more in this box. Hopefully he will get it tomorrow so he won't have to go without for too long. We've also been planning a little holiday for when he gets back. I think he has earned it!
Oh, and of course - it rained!!! What a bloody shocker. And, lucky us, we are getting more rain tomorrow. :-)
Nothing even remotely amusing happened today. I'm a little disappointed, I have to admit. I got to work at crazy am (6:20) so that I could leave early and go to a house closing. I mainly wanted to go because there was champagne and strawberries - and very nice they were too! I felt a little naughty drinking at 4pm on a Tuesday! The pleasure was entirely ruined by the silly traffic coming home though - an hour to go 6 miles!!!!! ick. Oh I know, all I ever do is complain - but really!! And, it isn't helped by the fact that drivers here like to look at the green light for a good 10 seconds before they go, presumably just to check that the light is in fact, green, and not just a green shade of red.
Oh the happy front, I spoke to hubby again today! He is so busy that he hasn't had time to check for the package I sent. I think he is out of peach iced tea (his absolute favourite) and I had send a load more in this box. Hopefully he will get it tomorrow so he won't have to go without for too long. We've also been planning a little holiday for when he gets back. I think he has earned it!
Monday, July 16, 2007
Music update!
Today I re-mastered my favorite concerto!! I am excited. Its the Concerto in C minor for Recorder (of flute) by Vivaldi. Its a super concerto and so much fun to play.
The down side is that the numbness in my fingers is happening again. I hope I don't go through the same disappointments all over again.
The down side is that the numbness in my fingers is happening again. I hope I don't go through the same disappointments all over again.
Today has had one positive feature - for dinner I had cake and wine. yay.
Ok, seriously, since when did Texas have a monsoon season? I have had it with the rain. I have it on good authority from the weather people that it has rained 26 out of the last 30 days. We don't need any more for the time being thank you very much!!! This kind of rubbish weather is why I left London in the first place. I don't need a repeat performance in my new home!
Really, today was rubbish. It started badly at 5:30 this morning when I clonked my knee on the bath. I have a bruise to match the one on the other knee that I got from running! Always an attractive look, don't you think!
It had its amusing moments though. During my lunch hour I was doing my usual routine at the gym (30 mins, 3.6 miles on the treadmill) when I was very rudely interrupted by a massive lightning strike and a power outage! That will ruin your knees if it happens too often. It was painful but ultimately funny. When we left the office for lunch, it was not raining. By the time we returned, post gym, it was lashing down. So much so, that walking to the car the water was coming over the top of my new pink shoes. So sad. Squelching in ones shoes is most unpleasant. Then, the side roads were all flooded. But when we got back to work, was in raining? Of course not!! merely a light drizzle. So, I looked a right wally with soaking trousers and wet shoes for the rest of the day. Oh someone send some sunshine please!
Hubby called today. He is well. I miss him so much, and I hope he gets his parcel of goodies soon!
Ok, seriously, since when did Texas have a monsoon season? I have had it with the rain. I have it on good authority from the weather people that it has rained 26 out of the last 30 days. We don't need any more for the time being thank you very much!!! This kind of rubbish weather is why I left London in the first place. I don't need a repeat performance in my new home!
Really, today was rubbish. It started badly at 5:30 this morning when I clonked my knee on the bath. I have a bruise to match the one on the other knee that I got from running! Always an attractive look, don't you think!
It had its amusing moments though. During my lunch hour I was doing my usual routine at the gym (30 mins, 3.6 miles on the treadmill) when I was very rudely interrupted by a massive lightning strike and a power outage! That will ruin your knees if it happens too often. It was painful but ultimately funny. When we left the office for lunch, it was not raining. By the time we returned, post gym, it was lashing down. So much so, that walking to the car the water was coming over the top of my new pink shoes. So sad. Squelching in ones shoes is most unpleasant. Then, the side roads were all flooded. But when we got back to work, was in raining? Of course not!! merely a light drizzle. So, I looked a right wally with soaking trousers and wet shoes for the rest of the day. Oh someone send some sunshine please!
Hubby called today. He is well. I miss him so much, and I hope he gets his parcel of goodies soon!
Sunday, July 15, 2007
Right then . . . moping over. I have done far too much of that in the last few weeks. Its not attractive and honestly, it only makes me miserable. The only answer is self help. I have had a little sit down and a think about what makes me happy. I figure that if I continue to do some of those things, I can only get happier. yeah, yeah. I know - it hardly took a genius to work that out. But, in case you're interested . . .
1. I fully intend to start up again with the music. The reason I gave up was so pathetic (under the scrutiny of 20/20 hindsight of course!) and I need to get over myself and my fears. Am I going to be the absolute best? Probably not. Can I get close? Absolutely. And. there is no reason why it can't be fitted in around my job.
2. I'm going to keep wearing my hair curly. If other people don't like it, that's their decision. I like it.
3. I will run that bloody marathon in February if its the last thing I do.
4. I will continue to drink beer, irrespecitve of whether or not it is "ladylike" to do so. I love beer.
5. I will go to Spain and to Australia next year.
This is my initial list. It is not profound, it is not special. It isn't really very interesting. But its a start to get over this self indulgent moping of the last few weeks.
1. I fully intend to start up again with the music. The reason I gave up was so pathetic (under the scrutiny of 20/20 hindsight of course!) and I need to get over myself and my fears. Am I going to be the absolute best? Probably not. Can I get close? Absolutely. And. there is no reason why it can't be fitted in around my job.
2. I'm going to keep wearing my hair curly. If other people don't like it, that's their decision. I like it.
3. I will run that bloody marathon in February if its the last thing I do.
4. I will continue to drink beer, irrespecitve of whether or not it is "ladylike" to do so. I love beer.
5. I will go to Spain and to Australia next year.
This is my initial list. It is not profound, it is not special. It isn't really very interesting. But its a start to get over this self indulgent moping of the last few weeks.
Friday, July 13, 2007
I have that sad, sinking feeling today, and I don't know why. There have been some rumblings about a possible return date from Iraq for hubby. I think I want to believe them, but I just don't. So many things we are told end up to be absolute rubbish so I have not allowed myself to be excited. Maybe this is why I am sad. I want to be excited. But, even if I got excited about a return date, that is still months from now, and anything could happen.
I think I will take my anger at the situation out on the running track tomorrow. It is a great release for the huge amount of rage I feel. It helps the clothes fit better too which has to be a positive!!
The non-descript sad feeling makes me miss home too. I'd do anything to be able to pop back now and again to visit my super friends and to go to familiar places. The weather is more pleasant too. 4000 miles is a long long way though . . . so I will keep dreaming!
I think I will take my anger at the situation out on the running track tomorrow. It is a great release for the huge amount of rage I feel. It helps the clothes fit better too which has to be a positive!!
The non-descript sad feeling makes me miss home too. I'd do anything to be able to pop back now and again to visit my super friends and to go to familiar places. The weather is more pleasant too. 4000 miles is a long long way though . . . so I will keep dreaming!
Thursday, July 12, 2007
Wonderful News and some facts I am certain you never knew
Today I got some great news. Some friends of mine who lost a baby a little over a year ago, have just had a beautiful baby girl. I could not be happier for them. And, it couldn't happen to two more caring and lovely people.
Today was also insanely hot (101 and seriously humid) and amusing. We played a family game of articulate (a little bit like taboo). Highly amusing all round really. If you believed the descriptions given during the evening, you would have come away believing the following:
1. spiders have 6 legs
2. the capital of the Holland is Antwerp (hmmm! new passports all around for the good people of Antwerp then!)
3. orchids are a small sea animal that float near the shore
4. Dudley Moore is married to Ashton Kutcher
Perhaps I shouldn't admit all this . . .!!! We're not a bunch of dimwits - I promise!
Today was also insanely hot (101 and seriously humid) and amusing. We played a family game of articulate (a little bit like taboo). Highly amusing all round really. If you believed the descriptions given during the evening, you would have come away believing the following:
1. spiders have 6 legs
2. the capital of the Holland is Antwerp (hmmm! new passports all around for the good people of Antwerp then!)
3. orchids are a small sea animal that float near the shore
4. Dudley Moore is married to Ashton Kutcher
Perhaps I shouldn't admit all this . . .!!! We're not a bunch of dimwits - I promise!
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
concerns from separation
Oh today at work was so slow. I thought it might never end.
I have been thinking at lot. When my husband deployed overseas a lot of thoughts ran though my head. Of course, I was concerned for his safety, and concerned that he would be travelling though a very volatile area. I was also concerned that the experience of being there would change him. Four months of lead up training and then a year full time is a long long time for a reservist who does not usually spend more than one weekend a month in that environment. So, as I say, it concerned me.
What I didn't really consider was how it might change me. I just thought that it would be the same for me . . .same town, same chores, same life, just without him. Oh was I wrong! If I'd sat down and thought about it, it would have occurred to me that in my whole life, I have lived alone for 2 months. Now I have been living along 10 months. Not only that, but I had always been in school or uni. Now I have a professional job without the inbuilt socials and late night study bonding.
So 10 months of significant alone time can really change you. There are positives, of course. I'm much more self assured that before. And I can put up curtains and fix toilets. But, it now worries me that other things could be a problem. Have I become too selfish in what I do with my spare time? Have I become less considerate of another person living in the house?? Luckily for me, this has finally come to me at a time when I can still do something about it. He is not expected home for at least 4 more months.
Then of course comes the question of whether I should change back. I feel I should give him what he bargained for as it were, but, should I deny who I am? I know myself much better now than I did before. I want that to continue, and at the same time, make things work as they did before.
Is it realistic to expect things to be the same?
so many questions
I have been thinking at lot. When my husband deployed overseas a lot of thoughts ran though my head. Of course, I was concerned for his safety, and concerned that he would be travelling though a very volatile area. I was also concerned that the experience of being there would change him. Four months of lead up training and then a year full time is a long long time for a reservist who does not usually spend more than one weekend a month in that environment. So, as I say, it concerned me.
What I didn't really consider was how it might change me. I just thought that it would be the same for me . . .same town, same chores, same life, just without him. Oh was I wrong! If I'd sat down and thought about it, it would have occurred to me that in my whole life, I have lived alone for 2 months. Now I have been living along 10 months. Not only that, but I had always been in school or uni. Now I have a professional job without the inbuilt socials and late night study bonding.
So 10 months of significant alone time can really change you. There are positives, of course. I'm much more self assured that before. And I can put up curtains and fix toilets. But, it now worries me that other things could be a problem. Have I become too selfish in what I do with my spare time? Have I become less considerate of another person living in the house?? Luckily for me, this has finally come to me at a time when I can still do something about it. He is not expected home for at least 4 more months.
Then of course comes the question of whether I should change back. I feel I should give him what he bargained for as it were, but, should I deny who I am? I know myself much better now than I did before. I want that to continue, and at the same time, make things work as they did before.
Is it realistic to expect things to be the same?
so many questions
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
Supermarket Etiquette
A note to the well meaning folks of my neighbourhood . . .
shopping on your own at the supermarket in the early evening is not a sign of being single/sad/in need of sympathy!!
If you see a girl shopping in the evening and buying food for one, please don't come up to her and say "not so much fun, cooking just for you, is it?" Also, please don't suggest the double portion that can be frozen for a second meal.
And finally, if you work in the supermarket and have a cold, please don't work in the fresh produce section
this is all based on my latest experience at the supermarket. I felt quite traumatised by the end of it!!
shopping on your own at the supermarket in the early evening is not a sign of being single/sad/in need of sympathy!!
If you see a girl shopping in the evening and buying food for one, please don't come up to her and say "not so much fun, cooking just for you, is it?" Also, please don't suggest the double portion that can be frozen for a second meal.
And finally, if you work in the supermarket and have a cold, please don't work in the fresh produce section
this is all based on my latest experience at the supermarket. I felt quite traumatised by the end of it!!
Why, would anyone deliberately set out to hurt their child?
Some people I know have recently married. They are very young (in their teens), and both families were a little unsure about the wedding and whether it was a good idea. But, they did marry and are a very happy little couple. One parent, however, is apprently determined to be as horrible as possible to her child over the whole thing. she leaves voice messages and sends emails that are full of hate. She even went to far to say that she wished her child's spouse dead. The couple are both smart, educated, and kind. I simply cannot understand how anyone could be so cold to their own child.
As for me, this has been a rough week. Not sure if I mentioned that I am a long long way away from my husband and have been for some time as he is deployed. I have worried more than ususal this week. I don't know why. I am hoping that it is unnecessary extra worry.
I worry more when the phones are out and he can't call. This didn't bother me so much until the time when I could hear gun fire. Now my nerves are on edge much more often. I can't wait for this all to be over - for me and for all the other families out there.
Some people I know have recently married. They are very young (in their teens), and both families were a little unsure about the wedding and whether it was a good idea. But, they did marry and are a very happy little couple. One parent, however, is apprently determined to be as horrible as possible to her child over the whole thing. she leaves voice messages and sends emails that are full of hate. She even went to far to say that she wished her child's spouse dead. The couple are both smart, educated, and kind. I simply cannot understand how anyone could be so cold to their own child.
As for me, this has been a rough week. Not sure if I mentioned that I am a long long way away from my husband and have been for some time as he is deployed. I have worried more than ususal this week. I don't know why. I am hoping that it is unnecessary extra worry.
I worry more when the phones are out and he can't call. This didn't bother me so much until the time when I could hear gun fire. Now my nerves are on edge much more often. I can't wait for this all to be over - for me and for all the other families out there.
Monday, July 9, 2007
marathon training
So,
Marathon training is not going well. I have hurt my knee. Came back from a small run (only 6 miles or so) only to find that my kneecap was all bruised looking. 48 hours later and its still looking dodgy. This is very frustrating. I may have to stick with the half marathon instead which sucks because I wanted the challenge of the full thing. ARGH. We'll see.
Marathon training is not going well. I have hurt my knee. Came back from a small run (only 6 miles or so) only to find that my kneecap was all bruised looking. 48 hours later and its still looking dodgy. This is very frustrating. I may have to stick with the half marathon instead which sucks because I wanted the challenge of the full thing. ARGH. We'll see.
random thoughts for the day
Today I had to chair a meeting for a large project at work. I made an effort to wear nice clothes etc. And then what is the first thing I did today? Spilled coffee all down my front. It looked lovely on my pale pink top. That just about sums up my workday.
Away from work, I was pleased to read that the 3 year girl taken hostage in Nigeria was released. Crimes against children are such a horrific thing in society. Its a relief to see a happy ending for once, and I just hope that she doesn't remember much about it.
I have also been following the English football transfer market some. The money in football, american football and other sports is enough to make you sick. I love to watch sports as much as the next person, and I get that these people need to make a living. But millions and millions??? Imagine what that money could do for charitable causes in local communities. Sure, some sports personalities give huge amounts of money to charity - but not all of them. Our priorities seem to be all muddled up.
Away from work, I was pleased to read that the 3 year girl taken hostage in Nigeria was released. Crimes against children are such a horrific thing in society. Its a relief to see a happy ending for once, and I just hope that she doesn't remember much about it.
I have also been following the English football transfer market some. The money in football, american football and other sports is enough to make you sick. I love to watch sports as much as the next person, and I get that these people need to make a living. But millions and millions??? Imagine what that money could do for charitable causes in local communities. Sure, some sports personalities give huge amounts of money to charity - but not all of them. Our priorities seem to be all muddled up.
Sunday, July 8, 2007
Do you ever feel like . . .
Do you ever feel like you step up one time and from there forward, you become the reliable one, the reasonable one, the one you go to if there's something to say that's difficult, or that might cause confrontation?
Well, that's how I feel and the moment. I'm quite bored with it actually. I wish other folks would take responsibility and say what it is they want to say. For a start, perhaps that would solve a few things. And, then maybe I can have a rest from putting out other people's fires. This is not a job I asked for within the family and yet, I appear to have been bestowed with the honor. Fabulous.
Yesterday was a frustrating day in a lot of ways. I'm having to keep my anger . . . well maybe not anger - maybe just irritation . . . in at the moment which is completely contrary to any advice I would give anyone else. Currently though, by letting it out I would damage too many relations and it would be an especially selfish move under the circumstances. The blog will have to do for today!
I suppose what I want, in short, is for the other people to grow some balls (nice turn of phrase, I know) or stop whining about it. Also, I'd like someone, just someone in the aforementioned group, to ask how I am feeling today, or how my day was. Is that so much to ask? Really? Even if they don't really care that much, it would be so nice to be asked. My need is quite basic.
Well, that's how I feel and the moment. I'm quite bored with it actually. I wish other folks would take responsibility and say what it is they want to say. For a start, perhaps that would solve a few things. And, then maybe I can have a rest from putting out other people's fires. This is not a job I asked for within the family and yet, I appear to have been bestowed with the honor. Fabulous.
Yesterday was a frustrating day in a lot of ways. I'm having to keep my anger . . . well maybe not anger - maybe just irritation . . . in at the moment which is completely contrary to any advice I would give anyone else. Currently though, by letting it out I would damage too many relations and it would be an especially selfish move under the circumstances. The blog will have to do for today!
I suppose what I want, in short, is for the other people to grow some balls (nice turn of phrase, I know) or stop whining about it. Also, I'd like someone, just someone in the aforementioned group, to ask how I am feeling today, or how my day was. Is that so much to ask? Really? Even if they don't really care that much, it would be so nice to be asked. My need is quite basic.
Saturday, July 7, 2007
Now, for a small person. I have huge feet. I mean it - God was kind enough to make me a petite 5 feet 3, size 0-2 etc. but then he had a huge joke by giving me massive great feet - both long and wide, and according to my mother , ugly. I hate my feet. But recently, I have decided to embrace my hideous feet by indulging outrageous amounts of shoe buying.
To be fair, they were all good deals. Great deals, in fact. But seriously - who needs lime green dress sandals? I do apparently. And they will look good with nice black dress trousers. But I think I really do have a problem. I have purchased 10 pairs of shoes in the last two weeks. And that is in addition to the four pairs in the two weeks before then. So it really makes me wonder - what is it about shoes? I just cannot control myself around them.
And one more thing - what is with all the trainers coming onto the court at Wimbledon this year???? Isn't being fit enough to deal with scheduling issues just part of being a tennis star?
To be fair, they were all good deals. Great deals, in fact. But seriously - who needs lime green dress sandals? I do apparently. And they will look good with nice black dress trousers. But I think I really do have a problem. I have purchased 10 pairs of shoes in the last two weeks. And that is in addition to the four pairs in the two weeks before then. So it really makes me wonder - what is it about shoes? I just cannot control myself around them.
And one more thing - what is with all the trainers coming onto the court at Wimbledon this year???? Isn't being fit enough to deal with scheduling issues just part of being a tennis star?
Friday, July 6, 2007
I was thinking today about being alone - not permanently - and how it forces you to get to know yourself rather too well. I mean - you spend all this time thinking and assessing relationships and going back over all the little things that could have changed your life - all those decisions etc. And then, what if after all that, you don't much care for the person you find. Is it really that easy to just change yourself and fix all those things you don't like?
This has been bothering me all day. Can you make yourself a "good sport" just because you don't really like that you are not? Can you get over a hang up or bias, just because you would want your friends to? I certainly don't know. But I think its something to think about. I suppose I am stuck between on the one hand thinking that people should accept me as I am, but on the other, knowing that I wouldn't much like to be my friend.
I prefer to think about politics, but sadly this has been all there is on my mind today. That and the non stop miserable rain. Perhaps that has influenced my mind's path some.
This has been bothering me all day. Can you make yourself a "good sport" just because you don't really like that you are not? Can you get over a hang up or bias, just because you would want your friends to? I certainly don't know. But I think its something to think about. I suppose I am stuck between on the one hand thinking that people should accept me as I am, but on the other, knowing that I wouldn't much like to be my friend.
I prefer to think about politics, but sadly this has been all there is on my mind today. That and the non stop miserable rain. Perhaps that has influenced my mind's path some.
from the old blog . . .
THU
28JUN
Cat Fights and Designer Bags
It is becoming apparent that people cannot take responsibility for their actions and that standards are slipping. Gone, it seems, are the days when someone can appreciate that maybe, just maybe, they stepped over the line, accept that they made a mistake and move on.
For example - take the debate between the democratic candidate's wife and the right wing author. Really , really folks. I believe all the wife was saying was, question my husband on the issues rather than throwing insults. The response? Right wing chick gets shirty and says wife is telling her to shut up. Not so if you read the transcript. Seriously people - get a grip. Some advice to them both. 1. Wife - don't call up the news shows to fight his battles, it makes him look weak. 2. Right wing chick - if someone asks you to stop the insults and speak on the issues, please, speak about the issues rather than having a hissy fit.
And, since when was it common practice to loot the houses of flood victims. not only did we see this in New Orleans in 2005, but now in the UK with the huge floods over there. Come on folks! And where are the parents of the teenagers who are doing this?
The US Supreme Court today had some good and some bad rulings to close out its term. The affirmative action case in Kentucky and Washington State have, in my opinion, come out with the right result. Busing kids for 4 hours a day in the name of diversity just cannot be a good thing, whichever side of the fence you sit on affirmative action. Well done majority in that one.
However, the anti trust case is a worry. Minimum pricing law was, until today, settled for almost 100 years. Now, designers etc. will be able to set minimum prices for their goods. Some analysis has suggested that the potential consequences will not be all that bad. Maybe, maybe not, but it does seem to undermine the whole point of anti trust in the first place. And, sorry girls, but it could spell the end to the bargain priced brands at our favourite close out locations.
oh. and one last thing. Playing music in ones car so loudly that I can hear it in my living room is not freedom of expression, it is rude and immature.
8:20 PM
TUE
26JUN
New To This?
So,
There's so much of the blogging business around that it seemed appropriate to start one. After all, if everyone else around the world is interesting enough, I must be too, right? OR maybe not. To be honest, reading the daily imput of people's dull lives doesn't hold that much interest to me, but the number of hits on some friend's blogs makes me wonder what all the fuss is about.
Surely people have better things to do with their lives?
Perhaps not. After all, I am sitting here in my study at 4:44 on a Tuesday afternoon apparently with nothing better to do that surf random blogs and finally give in to creating my own.
My beef of the day is with those who like to sit in their offices at work and talk loudly about politics and the state of the universe and how it all needs changing. The folks that I have in mind love to wax lyrical about the topic, but if you once question them on what they preach, or suggest that an alternative plan might at least have a slither of merit, they shut you down, change the subject, and strongly suggest that one might like to leave their office pronto.
I have to wonder why they even bother to have an opinion in the first place if it is clearly not thought through, or, in some cases, not even logical. Take for instance, the argument for/against the death penalty. Personally, I am undecided so I like to seek the opinions of others. The typical response is "well, the Bible says and eye for an eye." True . . . but . . . what about what Jesus said about turning the other cheek? I ask. Now, if you are reading this and thinking that I am professing some great insight, I am of course doing nothing of the sort. I am merely asking what millions have asked before me. But this gassing, self absorbed being before me simply dismisses me from the office without even a sniff of recognition that I might have a point in there somewhere. I don't even want them to agree with me, I just want them to justify/explain/fight for their own proposition.
Why can't/won't people do so? Surely society would benefit if people at least thought about their deep rooted beliefs and not just blindly stand by them? Or, is my belief in people needing to think exactly one of those beliefs I have such a problem with??? I'd like to know (really!!). This has been on my mind for some time.
28JUN
Cat Fights and Designer Bags
It is becoming apparent that people cannot take responsibility for their actions and that standards are slipping. Gone, it seems, are the days when someone can appreciate that maybe, just maybe, they stepped over the line, accept that they made a mistake and move on.
For example - take the debate between the democratic candidate's wife and the right wing author. Really , really folks. I believe all the wife was saying was, question my husband on the issues rather than throwing insults. The response? Right wing chick gets shirty and says wife is telling her to shut up. Not so if you read the transcript. Seriously people - get a grip. Some advice to them both. 1. Wife - don't call up the news shows to fight his battles, it makes him look weak. 2. Right wing chick - if someone asks you to stop the insults and speak on the issues, please, speak about the issues rather than having a hissy fit.
And, since when was it common practice to loot the houses of flood victims. not only did we see this in New Orleans in 2005, but now in the UK with the huge floods over there. Come on folks! And where are the parents of the teenagers who are doing this?
The US Supreme Court today had some good and some bad rulings to close out its term. The affirmative action case in Kentucky and Washington State have, in my opinion, come out with the right result. Busing kids for 4 hours a day in the name of diversity just cannot be a good thing, whichever side of the fence you sit on affirmative action. Well done majority in that one.
However, the anti trust case is a worry. Minimum pricing law was, until today, settled for almost 100 years. Now, designers etc. will be able to set minimum prices for their goods. Some analysis has suggested that the potential consequences will not be all that bad. Maybe, maybe not, but it does seem to undermine the whole point of anti trust in the first place. And, sorry girls, but it could spell the end to the bargain priced brands at our favourite close out locations.
oh. and one last thing. Playing music in ones car so loudly that I can hear it in my living room is not freedom of expression, it is rude and immature.
8:20 PM
TUE
26JUN
New To This?
So,
There's so much of the blogging business around that it seemed appropriate to start one. After all, if everyone else around the world is interesting enough, I must be too, right? OR maybe not. To be honest, reading the daily imput of people's dull lives doesn't hold that much interest to me, but the number of hits on some friend's blogs makes me wonder what all the fuss is about.
Surely people have better things to do with their lives?
Perhaps not. After all, I am sitting here in my study at 4:44 on a Tuesday afternoon apparently with nothing better to do that surf random blogs and finally give in to creating my own.
My beef of the day is with those who like to sit in their offices at work and talk loudly about politics and the state of the universe and how it all needs changing. The folks that I have in mind love to wax lyrical about the topic, but if you once question them on what they preach, or suggest that an alternative plan might at least have a slither of merit, they shut you down, change the subject, and strongly suggest that one might like to leave their office pronto.
I have to wonder why they even bother to have an opinion in the first place if it is clearly not thought through, or, in some cases, not even logical. Take for instance, the argument for/against the death penalty. Personally, I am undecided so I like to seek the opinions of others. The typical response is "well, the Bible says and eye for an eye." True . . . but . . . what about what Jesus said about turning the other cheek? I ask. Now, if you are reading this and thinking that I am professing some great insight, I am of course doing nothing of the sort. I am merely asking what millions have asked before me. But this gassing, self absorbed being before me simply dismisses me from the office without even a sniff of recognition that I might have a point in there somewhere. I don't even want them to agree with me, I just want them to justify/explain/fight for their own proposition.
Why can't/won't people do so? Surely society would benefit if people at least thought about their deep rooted beliefs and not just blindly stand by them? Or, is my belief in people needing to think exactly one of those beliefs I have such a problem with??? I'd like to know (really!!). This has been on my mind for some time.
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